after pick up skylinn my second daughter i saw everybody around neighbord.they talking about what i doing in the last night coz my 6 floor the lady complaint w everybody around the building.is w super or managers or w some neighbourd too ,her say my daughter all the time making noise until late.usually in the weekdays they sleeping around 6.30 night or 7.30 night already sleeping coz tommorow going to school .and my daughter the first go home 12.oo after gohome her i take go to library or doing someting until the 2 sister 2.30 gohome we pick up and after in the upstairs i give them eat and they palying until 5.30  and 5.30 after take shower they already in the bed watching television until time they sleeping.but my neighbour in 6 floor want is bequiet.how the kids can bequiet and all the time asking me why i dont want moving and to many people in my apartement so dont have space for my kids.but usually the mean her want i moving and all the time complaind w super or managers coz her want the managers asking me moving from this apartement.omg sometimes i really dont too they before young and have kids too but dont understand about tolerant w everybody in neighbourd or home.why??or in usa tolerant w diferent people is very difficult??or in usa dont have hearts or lazy for tolerant people??supposed is easy !!

like me having kids is no easy,i dont want my kids noise and i dont want my kids doing fulling around where ever them want but nothing choice this kids them noise ,fulling around is good if no become stupid.but how my neighbourd cant understand about thay.i to be them mom dont want them doing like that but cant do this kids!! and if her want calling police too is ok this no me problem becoz no me doing but this kids doing and them still under 5 years old no understand anything

just sometimes no understand how to be neighbourd never and cant help ,and all the time just easy complaint this and that and never tolerant w other people and kids!!

how in usa the goverment all the time say important kids but still alot people never tolerant about kids!! and still bling the parents if the kids noise at home and this and that??and my 3 daughter all the time 7 oclock morning week up and cry and my neighbour in 6 floor complaint too and say why her all the time week up early??can u explain w me to be the parents how u angry n no let the one yeras daughter no week up early in the morning and say no fight w her sister so no crying so no making noise??how one years old understand what i want??

ehm sometimes no easy living in apartement w someone no cant tolerant w neighbourd is usually her no i have sometimes difficult time deal w kids ….

today im doing the laundry again up down,up down n  morning i already really bad luck @@ im broken my baby stroler.so morning after i going take the laundry and throw in lobby i going to the target buy the stroler 60 buck and shoes for 3 daughter.after that i try put the pieces stroler become good stroler.but i cant making so i call the lincoln and go home after in the lobby i take the bag laundry in upstairs and after that i go downstair again for take another laundry bag but before going after i think i must doing the stroler for my daughter coz if no if i going i cant carry her all the time but still cant doing put the pieces stroler become stroler so lucky have my neighbour the husband helping me putting the stroler pieces by become nice stroler and after that him still helping me carry my laundry go to upstairs my apartement.i really plaesure w him because im really tyed and my back is hurt me and my stomach pulling me .and after that still one bag in downstairs so im lucky again have somebody carry and helping me.i really dont is god is really amazing but if im think back again in my live is small problem and happen always somebody helping me ,i now this because god.i really never pieces or sick in my hearts if my husband never helping me do someting.

and justnow i calling my parents and they want i go back in my countries too but i really dont what i must explain to my parents .i know them miss me and my kids but how i can go home.the first in my paper work no yet coming ,second i dont have money.so what imust do??i really tyed stuck in my condition.because i dont want disappoint my parents but the other problem i really lazy w my husband,him never understand me and all the time just want using me.i really tyed in this family but i must stay for my 3 daughter if no i really want disappiear than w him. n all  the time the first wife calling her daughter asking the father good w her all im good w her all no .n who making her food. or no my boysfriends the mother calling from china asking to my boys friends the daughter ,me at home ,no going ,what my daughter boys friends eat ..omg sometimes i really boring n tyed.

i do everything at home like laundry,buy veg ,take care 3 kids,and like view days in my room have alot cocroach n my boyfriends say im no doing everything well.but usually everything cocroach coming from my boysfriends the think.omg ALWAYS n alaways blind me @@.and all the time him say ,him give me 800 dollar permonths how finish.him dont if my first daughter the bus school everymonths 250.and go to laundry every week finish 30 buck.and must buy bakery for my daughter and her daughter everydays 10 buck.after day 2 week one time must buy the diaper or shampo or soap  and tootbrusth or tooth paste for everybody at home and sometimes food stamp no enough money still buy w cash.i never buy for my self and sometimes cant effort buy everything for my daughters too.and still saying me using alot money.and like this morning nothing choice i must buy stroler for my no 3 daughter coz the stroler broken and shoes for my first and second daughter coz the shoes really broken.so what i must do.

like tomorrow im tyed but what can i do.i must going being my self and my daughter walking to every school for register my first daughter go to kindergarden and usually tommorrow her birthdays.what i must do?? im no buy her anything else just brings her go library n buy her cake .i really dont .my minds tyed .n everydays making me boring.

n my boysriends want the mother back n take care my kids again.because the reason nobody take restaurant.what imust do ?i really angry w him.supposed him know restaurant no my problem anymore and the mother cant take my kids.all the time saying can take care well.what take care well??take care her daughter from the first wife alright than take care my kids.everything good staff always give too my boysfriend the daughter than to my kids and my kids all the time her yell if touching my boys friends the daughter staff or anything else .i really hate my boys friends i must hear him decision n must listen and must do.and if have someting wrong me agin get yell form him and the mother too.

i really want run from anything else at home.i really tyed but never and never him or her daughter helping me .looking like me baby sister or him employer.i have hearts ,i have brain n think .i cant do like this anymore………………………………

im all the time hobby just read book or play comp.and after w boys friends i having three kids and must at home coz nobody family or people helping me.so the mean i must take care my three kids and 2 kids for my boy friends previous married <they 14 and 20 years old>.u now i already tyed take care my kids and must take care my boy friends kids too.i dont my boy friends thinking im her wife or baby sister him and they kids.coz usually what ever at home i must doit for everybodys includes my boy friends kids too. like buy vegetables ,going laundry ,clean up everything,clean dish everybody eat included my boy frinds the kids too. and through garbage.usually i can doit is easy if the elevator in my apartament is working .but my elevator in apartement no working about around 3 months .start december already no working until march and is bad news we living in 7 fllor ,so u can imagines how i doing everything being my self using stairs and nobody helping me included my boy friends and boy friends never asking the daughter too helping me doing and usually the daughetr is 14 and 20 years old already.so sometimes im thinking i really hate him so much.im really under pleasure w him.and if i not doing anything is good and right for him and him daughter from previous married him can yell me.i really dont if i really love him??but i now i really hate him.and i cant do anything everything right now coz i dont have money and can working coz must take my 3 small kids and dont have family in usa .so i cant doing anything .just i hope my paper works can coming out is very soon so at least i can go back in my really country<no china off course >.and see my parents.coz i really miss them ,almost 8 years i cant see him.coz the problem before long long time ago my boyfriend promised to me can helping me apply the paper work but what i get after 6 years him never helping me apply,and lucky i have friends and the brother <before is my boss ,i working in him place long time ago but after that him all the time helping me if me get problem and stay in my besides if me sad ,so i already think him my brother more than anything coz in usa i dont have family too so is good for me have him>and told me and open my minds .so the means they told my boys friends just using u and never think helping me .so if me no try apply the paper work hurry up without him me off course cant get anything.so i listen and try apply and lucky get approved so i just waiting until the good time so hope i get finish my paper work n get go home see my parents with brings my kids coz i really miss them.almost 8 years no see my parents and all the time deal with my boys friends and my boy friends kids so sometimes making me frustttttttttttarion.and sad.and u now my boy friends the kids coming before around 2006 so the number one before coming is 14 years old and right now is 20 and already go college and working partime in bakery shop but what her doing forget before the first time coming im take her and buy her everything staff and right now her bigger dont care anything included my daughter too .so sad alright.usually i never want her buy somestaff for me i just want her think back and respect and can want aknow about my daughter too.like this is my daughter still her sister too coz same father but her really dont care .and the number two my boyfriends daughter form previous married befor coming in usa 9 years old and right now is 14 years old is same her dont care anything and all the time yell my daughter and never helping me too. so i must doing everything for two kids my boyfriends daughter from previou married like clean them dish ,through garbage,helping them apply  insuranced health,laundry ,buy that or this them need.and never they helping.so what i must do.im tyed if liar for my hearts and my self ,alot plaesure in this home.but if i talking w my boy friends him angry and yell me.so i really dont understand what my boy friends want.if him no love me for what give me alot plaasure.n no let me go!! and if i really in him besides all the time make me feel sick and boring.so i dont i really think im is back luck in my life coz never and ever get happy in my life.so in the 2012 this new years what i must believed?? can i get shining star in my life?? or still back luck star in my life?? i really dont know but just only one i know i trying getting strong because only i looking my 3 kids small angel,they making me angry,they making me tyed but they making me smile hope they bigger understand what the mother doing for them and know hoe suffer the mother because the father but ,the mother try stronger because them ^^

i living in 7 floor in apartement in flushing with my 3 daughter and boyfriends and 2 girls from my boyfriends marrieds with first wife before..and from start december until march dont have elevator going up and down ,so u now im using go stairs from 7 floor to 1 floor or 1 floor go 7 floor.can u imagines??one week i must going laundry my kids clothes me and three small kids and i must laundry too my boyfriends daughter which 14 and 20 years old.they never want helping me.one is working part time in bakery shop and one just playing fulling arounds and dont care anything.and i must buy vegetables too.so u now how im tyed but nobody care?and i must care for tham??if no my boyfriends can angry with me or my boys friend the mother in china can calling and asking this and that with my boyfriends the bigger daughter form first marrieds and thingking im lazy.omg u now somehow i very tyed bring everythig like this 3 bag bigger clothing go 1 floor and one floor going 7 floor @@ im really tyed and buy vegetebles.u now everything expensive .and at home have 8 poeple and sometimes buy vegetebles 50 dollar s juast can eat one or two days coz my boyfriends the dayghter <20 yeras old>brings the boyfriends every night eat at home and the small bring the friends coming eat at home.and if saying the money finish for buy vegetanbles my boy friends angry with me.and the daughter my boyfriends number 2 dform friedt marries sometimes asking me question like i her baby sister or employed.aunts im thirsty u dont have bottle water at home?and i really angry everything i buy and bring upstairs downstairs or downstairs upstair her never want helping me with to much reason and if thirsty looking me.and if i buy never want keeping and just want drink and told the friends coming at home palying everyday with different friends and give the water with the friends .but if finish asking me buy and never thingking im tyed and never asking want helping me.and same like i trough garbage her two never want helping and now the elevator no working.and if they go paly go downstairs never want helping take garbege too so mee again.u now how many time i go upstairs downstair or downstairs upstairs.but nobody helping me .included my boyfriends.sometimes i reall boring .i thinking my boyfriends just using me for baby siititng her daughter than take care me and my daughter @@.and my kids is cranky too.making me tyed and naughty dont want listen but usually i now they making me laugh and feel no boring but with this family im really sick and tyed and cant do the best take care my lkids.coz everything i do for my boyfriends daughter.and nobody helping me and care about me @

i dont in new years 2012 what going out and happen i get again.coz i think i get bad luck all the time .like this my 3 daughter get sick.have trough up,stomach eggs.what imust do .everyday every years i try making they strong but probably i cant doing better to be they mom @@ hope get better soon my daughte

my boys friend last night call me and want me help one week in his store.i want try help but i dont want my kids suffer emotional in my mom in law hand and my boys friend kids.coz i now them if i no at home what they do whit my kids…but usually i really needed money for pay bus school my bigger daughter each mont 230 dollar but how i must do.i really cant let my kids in evil hand.but usually i now my kids is really dont want listen too.but i cant let my kids dead.becoz i now my mom in law cant handle my kids but say can handle.and never want take care my kids is seriously coz her just only want take care my boys friends kids already bigger .coz no noise. so what i must do??

i think my mom in law is already change but usually is same .all the time her just only think about my boys friend the daughter.usually u now how old 20 years man !! and what her do scared example.no get boys friend.scared her no eat or anything else.usually how old her ?/20 man.
but all the time my mom in law like being crazy.no let her do garbage,no let her clean dish,and no let her go laundry.like in the wednesday i go laundry with 4 almost 5 bag bigger include my boys friend closed and 2 her daughter.but what my mom in law do??her just say my boys friends bigger daughter go help go laundry and just put offer there.and after that my mom in law take my boys friends bigger daughter go shoping.and let me do being my self everything laundry.and after that her back again and say want put my 3 baby in the laundry place .omg what in her mind 4 until 5 bag no finish yet and want put my baby in the laundry place too.what u thingk about my mom in law??and after that by everything and off course for the beloved grand daughter from my boysfriends before wife.and looking my kids eat all ready yell.but if i buy someting from my kids money and her no saying anything.i really dont .i really tyed deal with this people.and sometimes my mom in law talking with me .so the mean im and my daughter making my boys friends suffer .coz how old him right now??and still must working give my daughter everything.but usually my daughter him just buy diaper becoz clothing or anything from somebody gv to my daughter.and everything money before until now just for him daughters from before married.i try want respect for my mom in law but usually i lokking her everyday .her just looking nice in fronts but hearts and mouth no looking nice.becoz her want my boys friends back to her before wife so her no worry the son working hard and no worry all the time with 2 grandchild already bigger but no do anything .

i guess almost 2 or 3 week i no write in my computer.becoz my mother in law try talking with me and i now her want go back to china too in november 17 so itry making someting good deal to with her.and almost 2 or 3 week too i looking her how her do.but btw i think her cant change the mind.really i try forget everything but her still remaind and all the time the mouth talking is go this side different and the other side different .and all the time thingking my boys friend the bigger kids is very no get anything. so what u think everything liar to her,her think is good but is me and my kids do wrong litlle bit everything like crazy.omg i try to stand more but i really cant stand more with her .i really tyed.all the time her mind no in my kids and me but all the time her always think my boys friends the 2 daughter life is very bad.i really dont what imust do…

this morning after my mother in law making me angry with try grab my 3 baby put in outside after that told with me for making breakfast for baby in 8 oclock morning.making me angry.becoz her think the son no enough sleep.but usually have somebody already call him in the 7.30 morning and 8 oclock morning.but my mother in law is think me again and my baby making noise.im really angry coz 4 until 5 years i do being my self and her dont understand how difficult me and just coming 3 months already to much complain with me,and told everybody i to much complain with her.omg.i really tyed and this morning becoz i dont fight to much or angry to much so i bring 3 kids go parks.in the flushing 2 diferent park and go manhattan in central park west.i really want calm down my self and usually making me happy too because brings the kids go parks they learns many staff too and making my 3 baby before looking people never her now is to shy or crying but right now her can say hai!! making me happy because what im do supposed for my self but this kind help my kids more have appreciate with people and understand me to be they mom too.becoz my 2 daughter usually no yet grow up or understand about parents problem becoz her like play but today her can told me.mom .father angry with U??i think right now my 2 daughter litle bit already open the mind n bigger .but sometimes still sturborn too^^.but little bit making me happy.so the mean im give birth.love and education no wrong becoz my kids already understand about my problem too.yeah they still small but small now the mean they no grow up.they understand about my problem ,im really happy.but usually my problem with my boys friends and my mother in law.i dont want fight with my mother in law and try respect her,and sometimes i try making my self calm down with bring kids what ever the place for making me forget my problem.but her no understand and all the time making me angry.so how come i can respect??some how want try respect her??but if everyday like this im really boring and hate her so much.this u think im bad personality??if have some people in my potition what they do??probably i must change my attitude for try forgive her??